Back To School!

Wow.....


Life is a rythm and it is constantly moving and changing.


I am one of those people that need time to make these adjustments along the way.  I don't mind change, but I don't like it sneaking up on me, therefore I like to process new ideas and situations, before I delve headlong into them.


So with an operation under my belt and health being low, I have decided to put my 2 cherubs back into the school system.


Why did I pull them out in the first place?


Many reasons, all valid.  And I must say, the kids and I have loved (almost) every minute of it.  I have caught them up on work they were falling behind on.  I have instilled in them the treasures that cannot be bought.  I have had precious time that I would not have had with them otherwise!


I have recently realised, that I no longer have the energy or capacity to give it 100% effort.  And so, I am sending them back.


They will be starting a new school next week.  One I think we will all be happy with.


So for me, although they are 8 and 12, it feels like the first time they ever went to school, back when they were 5.


As a perfectionist, I am always processing the what if's.


What If I have made the wrong decision....
What If I they don't fit in......
What If I enjoy my time off immensely, and secretly love it! (Hmmm that rings true)


So this last week of Easter Holidays has been a mix of emotions.


On the one hand, I am grieving them leaving me....I will miss them during the day.  Being able to point out ideas and beauty to them.


On the other hand I am also very excited to be getting my "time" back again.  Time to go to the Doctor's without 2 kids in tow, time to sit with a coffee and "think", time to go for a walk by myself without 2 kids and 2 dogs....


So we have been shopping for uniforms, books, pencils ect....and I have been so excited that they are going back, the school bags are packed 6 days before the event!


Bring it on.......Stellaaaaaaaaaa!